My last 7 days has been. Well. Crazy.
School hit its first hurdle. You know when you are exercising or (proper) dieting and you lose lots of a weight fast at first then you plateau? That's where I'm at. Well, was at. I started the year strong. Hit my first bumps with classes after midterms. Realized I'm not as smart as I like to think I am. And it was a bit rough. Had to "eat it" as is it were.
In the middle of that my work, which to be fair I had had my fill of and I was close to leaving anyways, filed for bankruptcy and suddenly no job. It's both a blessing and a frustration. I had eliminated a bunch of friends from Facebook because I was seeing them all the time at the store. Now that can't happen. I was also becoming increasingly frustrated with the job so this relieves that stress. No I just have to wait to see if I get severance and/or the large amount of holiday pay they owe me. Waiting game.
Back to the school stuff. I was mopey this weekend and having a problem with "getting it" when it came to some of the concepts I was learning. All the self doubt crept in. Then the job crap. Then the no pay crap. Then more self doubt.
Well I am pleased to say that while today I am sure is going to be a bitch (I have a bit of catching up to do) I have no doubt that I can do it. I can GET IT. It started last night. In Philosophy when I "Got" everything we read and discussed. Felt good. I have been "getting" math and was being too hard on myself, and Persian SHOULD be difficult. It's a foreign language. Don't get mad cause I don't get it. Challenge Accepted! As Barney says